i have very deep eye-bags. fullstop.

HI! lessons are boring. fullstop.

lesson learnt

life can have ups and downs,
however when its up dont get too complacent and it'll all go down,
when its down,
look up think about all the wonderful stuff you have,
and it'll all be okay.

Hi, welcome to the 2am, useless and random rants show. This show is specially made to feed the little to zero viewers dying need to 'watch' this useless yet sometimes funny(?)-maybe~ Show.

Introducing the host, producer, director, idiot, loser who created this rubbish. - Mr Joshua Tan. Okay that was totally random. but the last 2 words to describe me's kinda true though, its an arguably undeniable fact that its true.

relationships, maybe i should just throw this word out of my dictionary and replace it with the word alone, emo or single. All these fit the bill. What route's there left? Priesthood?... Maybe... Just maybe. After all nothings been up for me. Maybe the comfort ive always been looking for is up there, with god.

I is have no idea what to blog about anym.

Maybe my life was made out to be a total reject. Always getting rejected by what i love or what i try to love. Solutions? boxing myself out from the outside world.. Maybe..


I wonder what it feels like, to be warmly embraced in someone's arms. Guess that thought should be kicked out too. Just like its friend relationships.

just got back to blogging just‭ to keep this dead blog alive and im just bored. bored at 2am in the morning. imagine that.

random thoughts are going through my head now. Like, wha‭t would happen if i left this world now? Apparently, noone would care, okay maybe some. But not much that's for sure. Apart from family, probably noone else. What can you decipher from this? Im a strange kid with weird thoughts. Live with it joshua,‭ you're one‭ strange guy whom probably noone‭ will ever‭ want.

Second random thought. If Mars was made livable i'd probably want‭ to be the first to live there. Just‭ so i can‭ shut myself away from this oh‭-so cruel world. Not meaning the pollution already done to mother earth( im not an environmental person, and most probably also contributed to the rather shabby state earth's in now.), but rather‭ its my own problems that i just so reluctant‭ to‭ tell anyone, with the not so desirable outcomes which i know awaits‭ me if i do. Hence just closing‭ myself‭ up on an inhabited Mars certainly seems best.

Anyway, about‭ today or yesterday‭ rather. Dint know a simple task such as bring a dog to‭ punggol park could be‭ such a chore. Crashed at home immediately when i reached home.


Last but not least, happy birthday yuan.






whatever you do, whatever you‭ say, whatever you do to comfort me. I still do know you do it against your will.
Better lessons are learnt the hard way.

Hi, this is just a random post/update/whatever you call it.

i havent been doing work lately, im a lazy ass. face it joshua. you are.

okay bye!




things haven't exactly been up for me,
maybe it was wrong from the start.

Joshua's super duper lazy.

He's a moron.
He's also a flower.
He's also also a kid-eater.
He's also also also veeery evil.

Bye! :D