How do you feel? What are you thinking? How ae you now? I feel so terrible inside, not being able to comfort you.

I'm slowly losing and have already lost things so precious and dear to me. And no, I don't wish for you to be next.

The past 3 years that we haven't talked has been painful. Tried many things to preoccupy myself from you, only to regret it later on.

Yes, I know I'm a guy with many short-comings. But for you, only you and my family would I bother to make a change. That's how much you mean to me.